•Ever since I've run Fox Valley I've been feeling a little down. Sure it's probably a combo of the post marathon blues plus not hitting the goal I know I have in these legs. I've grieved enough, and am starting to move on and even started thinking about training for an early spring marathon! I'm happy that the "Marathon mix" on my iPod no longer almost brings me to tears. Oh and work has been super busy and has left me stressed to the point that reading blogs doesn't make me feel any less stressed.
•It's the deluge of "Fitspo" images that I see all over Facebook, twitter and instagram. I hate the kitschy slogans and borderline "Thinspo" models in the photos. This has bothered me for a long time. Anne Wrote an excellent post on this topic. I delete & hide all posts that contain this garbage. IMO I especially hate "strong is the new skinny" because I'm naturally "skinny" and can't do much to change that. There's plenty I'd like to change about my appearance, but I choose to embrace the body I have and not compare myself to some unrealistic ideal. Instead of being labeled "skinny" id rather be labeled as healthy and active. (Or why have a label in the first place?) Why put down a group of people? FYI, I haven't seen a "thicker" girl in any of those photos either. They are all skinny & most look like they have some sort of disordered eating. Plus, I love my wine, cheese and beer. Mmm
Kim found a cool advertisement that actually used a fit relatable looking woman as the model- who didn't have 0% body fat and ripped abs. Shocking I know!!
•Along those lines, I also hate the "Fitspo" of "you only regret the workout you don't do" or "someone somewhere is working harder than you." I will never be guilted into working out and know that value of rest days Are the key to success or longevity at any fitness goals & staying healthy. I have struggled a lot with guilt for not working out as much post FVM. I've maybe logged 30 miles total in the past 3 weeks and every day I decide not to go to the gym I feel guilty. I was used to running 5 days/ 45+ miles a week. My body needs rest after 14 weeks of intense training to remain injury free. And if I gain a few lbs during this time, then so be it.
•Daily Mile is starting to rub me the wrong way. I like recording my workouts & tracking my shoe mileage on there- because without it, I'd never be diligent enough to keep a log elsewhere. But... When I log a workout of "3 easy miles avg 8:00 a mile" I get the comments- "wow your easy pace is my full out sprint pace" or "I wish I could be as fast as you." Just as if I write how I'm disappointed in my 3:35 marathon and avg 8:12 a mile pace people will comment once again how they "wish they were as fast as me, don't be sad" or something else a long those lines. Of course I'm bummed, I just trained my ass off for 14 weeks and my body just broke down out of nowhere in the middle of a fu$king goal race.
And don't get me wrong, the support and encouragement is wonderful- but saying things like this puts down someone and diminishes people's accomplishments on both sides. Comparison leads to nowhere useful. I'm not "fast" by any means and won't be competing for an Olympic medal ever. But I do have work ethic and chose to spend some of my free time with this running hobby & for as long as I'm healthy, I'll keep trying to better my times- because that's just how I operate. I am starting to feel "guilty" writing a short blurb about my speed workout or whatever workout because of the comments. I should not feel bad I'm running faster than X or slower than Y. And perhaps this is just me over analyzing- and these comments mean no harm.
So I guess after this release of thoughts I'll feel better and eventually start reading blogs and stuff again. :)
Stay tuned tomorrow for a lighter- fluffier post about the Chicago marathon.
Are you sick of hearing about fall marathons yet? Haha